I’ve been lazy that last couple of weeks, a little lethargic, a little depressed. This year has been really tough on my family, and it’s about to get a whole lot tougher. In October last year I lost my job, (due to budget cuts with the Non-Profit that I was working for) and our family income got cut by 1/3. Our family owns and runs our own business, and my husband works full time to manage it…but again income has declined so we’ve had to really hunker down and get back to simple living. As you know, we’ve got another baby coming and that’s putting a lot of pressure on us too. Don’t get me wrong, we’re not about to be homeless or anything…but the Hubby and I have got some real life changing adjustments to make over the next year or so in order to get back into a groove of comfort again.
Today is proving to be hard for me, as have the last few weeks. I feel like I need to do something to improve our situation…but being 6 weeks away from delivering baby #3 there really isn’t ANYTHING that I CAN do. Or that’s how I feel anyway, and it’s really starting to wear on me. I’m a do-er, and being in a state of realizing that I can’t do anything TODAY or even tomorrow to help us is really tough. I’m feeling helpless. Over the last few months I’ve taken on a few projects, most in an attempt to work towards some type of income that I can contribute to our family…but I have a tendency to take on a lot and things get VERY complicated. I just have this NEED to do SOMETHING…especially when our situation needs improvement.
So, this morning I woke up and decided I need to cut myself a little slack. I definitely need to work towards trying to help our family, and work towards a career of some sort. But, I’ve been doing that actually…for the past two years…I’m only a year away from completing the degree that I started and that’s pretty big. That can help to change our situation DRASTICALLY, I just need to finish and be open to the opportunities that it will bring us. I’ve had all of these expectations of how my life would be…sometimes I get so caught up in trying to MAKE the future happen that I lose sight of what I’m doing TODAY, so today I’ve decided to let go a little bit. There’s no getting around it, this is year is going to be hard. REALLY hard. But I need to streamline a bit, focus in a little more, let go of a couple of things and hone in on what’s really important. I need to focus on finishing my degree, being a good wife, a good Mom, and having this baby. Everything else needs to take a back seat for a while, because that is what my family needs. That is what I need. I need to stop taking everything so seriously, not EVERYTHING needs to be turned into an opportunity to make money. Some of my talents I need to just enjoy for myself and not be so focused in on how it can be turned into a business, or how I can get paid to do this. I need to get enveloped in our current financial situation, and make it work. Be confident that the things that I’m spending my time on WILL improve our lives…that it just may take a little time, and that NEEDS TO BE OK.
So, here’s to a new life and new opportunities coming our way. I actually feel a little lighter, so I thank you for helping me lighten my load.
Now here’s a little fun! I’m still working on that 52 week photo project (something I’ve been taking for granted a little bit!), and this weekend I tried to get Jo to do a little photo shoot with me. Things got interrupted, and complicated (GO FIGURE!!) so I couldn’t get the shots that I actually wanted…but I DID get this one and it’s one of my favorites EVER of little lady J.
Hope you all have a great weekend, and will join me on my journey to simplify a little bit! What areas of your life could you afford to loosen up on?